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William Pears


I sat on my bedroom floor. Surrounded by laundry. In the dark. Painting my nails black. I was clothed in the same baggy jeans I had been wearing for the last two weeks and a holey tee-shirt. My hair was a tangled mess and I hadn’t changed out of my bed socks in a week. Oh, what a sore sight I must be. Nail polish spilled over the edges of my finger nails, and several drops even slopped on the floor. That would be a bitch to clean later. I didn’t care. That was the kind of mood I was in.

Ding Dong, Ding Dong, Ding Ding Ding, Dong.  The generic door bell sounded through my empty house. I rolled my eyes, ignoring it. It rang again. I groaned, pulling myself up off the floor, almost slipping on a dinner plate. I swore and kicked it out of my way. I carefully stepped over the rest of the obstacles, to my front door. I pulled it open, only a little; Just enough for me to see through the slot. “What?” I growled. Obviously, I wasn’t in the mood for pleasantries. An overweight, middle aged man stood on the other side. “Delivery. “ He muttered. I waited, hoping he would just dump it at the door and leave me the fuck alone. “Um... You need to sign.” He said awkwardly. I pushed the door aside snatching the machine from his stubby hands and scribbling the words ‘bite me’ onto the tiny screen. “Thanks.” He murmured, frowning at my note. But he handed me the parcel anyway.  I slammed the door behind me.

William Pears, my name, was written in pretty curly writing on the front of the box. I know what you’re thinking, what type of parent names their baby girl, William? Mine. Morons. I was named after a goddamned fruit.

I shoved the parcel into the bin. It seemed unlikely that I would want anything that was addressed to me in pretty curly writing, anyway. You think I’m ungrateful? Maybe I am. Whatever.

I threw myself onto my unmade bed staring at my ceiling, which was completely covered by a collage of band posters, internet memes and a handful of photographs. Parts of it sagged in the middle, and it was a little torn at the edges revealing the previous layer of stuff, all pretty and pink with smiling pictures of a much younger me, laughing with my friends. A word to the wise: popularity is bullshit. I had called it my ‘Inspiration wall’ even though it wasn’t a wall at all, or inspirational for that matter. I had tried to tear it all down when I underwent, what my mum refers to as my “drastic personality change” or whatever. My kid brother jokes that the real me was abducted by aliens and I was left in her place. Anyway, the Inspiration wall lives, partly because bits of it were actually glued to the ceiling, and others drawn directly over the paint. Plus, there was something in me that just couldn’t bear to take it down. Though I’ll deny I ever said that.

A tiny ding chimed from my laptop. I sat up, kicking my bottle of nail polish, spilling it all over the floor. Shit. Mum was going to hate me. Stop it. I mentally reminded myself, You don’t care what she thinks. Inbox (1). Click. Click.

To William Pears,

We thank you for your expression of interest regarding the Pears family tree. There are a number of documents in our archives that you may be interested in. Several copies have been forwarded to your address. Several artefacts have come into our possession. As your parents are the closest surviving heirs, they will also be shipped to the address provided via private courier.

Many Thanks,
Megan Thompson
Department of Genealogy  

Had today’s parcel arrived by private courier? So soon? I suddenly felt bad for being so rude to the delivery guy. I pulled my package out of the bin and delicately unfolded the box with anxious anticipation. I even giggled a little. Inside, wrapped in layers of blue tissue paper was an ugly pink heart-shaped box, hand painted by my nanna and a season of Smallville. Another birthday present from my 96 year old grandmother, who was apparently unaware that 1. This is April and my birthday is in November and 2. That she sent me the same season of Smallville for my “Unbirthday” in February. As if I would watch that shit anyway. I threw the package back in the trash. Mother would probably rescue it later.

I went back to my computer, scrolling through the parts of the family tree I had drawn already. I scanned through the faded photographs, decades old (and recently digital-a- fied) of the people whose blood runs through my veins.  Last year, at school, I had taken Modern History (of course I am still technically enrolled, It’s just a matter of showing up). The thing that bothered me most about it was that when the teacher spoke, he spoke of people as a collective, rather than actual people; as individual beings, with individual feelings. That was why I was so obsessed with the idea of drawing an extensive family tree. So I can see the dead. Actually see them, as individuals. People. And there is a connection between them and me, a connection I can no longer feel with the living. There are so many stories there. It overwhelms me, embraces me. It’s a family, completely untarnished by meeting. Hopelessly romanticised, but more real than any relationship I could have with any “immediate family”. 

Savannah's Tale Part 1

Savannah ran through the garden, the leaves brushing past her skin, blades of grass flicking her ankles. Her face was alight. Her blue eyes wide with excitement. She was grinning in a way that showed all of her teeth. A bubble rose inside of her exploding in spurts of uncontrollable giggles The kind of glee only a child could ever truly experience. 


The trees were extraordinarily green, spreading out in front of her like an arched pathway; with a protective canopy over her head. Safe. Welcoming. The birds sang their happy son, unidentifiable by most, because no one really did listen. But she heard them. She understood the way they were calling to her. Beckoning her to step forward, to join them in their song, to dance with them across the sky. She ran faster, then, her body stumbling over her little legs. Her long red hair flowed out behind her, creating an illusion of a flickering fire, small and bright.

... To Be Continued ...